booty smackin

not looking forward

Thu, 28 Aug 2008 02:51:02 GMT

to my birthday...it's a bit depressing

fo reals

Tue, 26 Feb 2008 05:49:50 GMT

ya know what I realized today? I seriously have drop dead gorgeous friends. i have had more people tell me that and I knew it, but for some reason it really hit me. Damn. I feel like it's a higher percentage than normal...and that is amazing,.

Anyways, i have been watching the show 'Friends' lately and I really enjoy it. I never thought I would just because it was so hyped up, but the writing is hilarious! It's funny cause I am sure like most people that watch that show, I want to be in NYC with a group of friends who all live within walking distance of each other. How freakin cool would that be. And everything we would say would be funny. And no matter what kind of fight/uncomfortable position we get in, we know that we will get through it! hahahahaha.i need to stop.

My niece Greta is a genius child I decided. I'm not just saying that either. She's 1 1/2 and can already count to 10 in both Spanish and English. She knows how old she is and is potty trained. Her verbal skills are impecable, she knows all of her colors and the abc's. It's kinda weird..but cool. They want to start her in kindergarten early too. She's just too perfect...it makes me feel bad for their next kid they have. Man, she is a tough gig to follow.

motivation

Mon, 04 Feb 2008 18:05:58 GMT

I honestly feel like i am the worst student on the face of the earth right now. My motivation with my classes that don't pertain to Italian are slowly becoming nothing to me. It's such a struggle for me to care about them and I am scared I will wind up this bum in colleg who does nothing. God I can't stand those people either.

Especially when I am dating someone who gets up at 6:45 like every morning and is constantly studying. Any suggestions on how to get out of this rut?

Well, last night Karl and I decided to keep our relationship at a non-serious status. I guess I don't really know what that means or anything, but I can deal. The future kinda freaks him out, but i guess i always though when you were in love with someone you imagined it with that person. The future scares us all, but I think I am over that part in my life where I am unsure and scared.

The question is: Can two people that are at different parts of their lives be together?

wow, i just felt like carrie bradshaw. I dunno, i think I am done with the whole confusion bullshit I don't even want to deal with more confusion that isn't on my part. I don't really know what to do about it and have been feeling kinda depressed lately. My dad is still distant, which I don't think will ever change. They just left for St. John's islands yesterday, so hopefully he will get some insight.

Maybe I just have male issues in general. i feel like every male in my life just abandons me. i know..sob..sob.. feel bad for myself, but I never have confronted the issue ever. Sometimes typing it and reading it for myself puts it in perspective.

awesome saturday night

Sun, 20 Jan 2008 07:46:03 GMT

~~cool night~~

yea. i decided to stay home tonight and not go out. Last night did not end well or in my favor. My agency had a bunch of their models and friends out on the town. I thought it would be fun to see my old friend nicole wood and catch up, have a couple drinks. so we show up to Craig's house (which by the way is a beautiful fuckin house) and he has all this booze and mixers. Anything you could want. I had a total of 2 drinks and by the time we got into the limos i was feelin it.

It wasn't until we got to the club envy that i felt the need to run to the bathroom. Yea i spent basically the whole night puking my guts out in this nice clubs bathroom. Talk about embarassing. I couldn't even walk. So i called karl and he came right away. I am still confused how i got that messed up from 2 fucking drinks. it just isn't registering in my head. I am soooo upset and embarassed right now. Thank God I ran to the bathroom and stayed there. I was a mess. My shirt and pants were covered in puke. i know it's embarassing to admit it, but maybe i have a problem knowing when to stop??

god. 2 drink lindsey.and she's gone for the night.

Stress city

Wed, 16 Jan 2008 17:24:04 GMT

Well, the jury that I am suppose to be making up has been postponed. I am kinda pissed about that because it was suppose to happen a while ago. My vocal coach hasn't e-mailed me back and it's really pissing me off. i need to make this up soon or I won't be able to go to Italy. and I MUST go to Italy.

It is kinda scary going alone to a foreign country, but I will find a friend for sure. I like not having a plan, it's a high you don't get that often. I just want to make sure i can save up some money..no more crazy spending sprees. Not that there were that many to begin with or anything.

Let's get this party started!!!!!!!!!!!!

POWER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

maybe private?

Mon, 14 Jan 2008 21:03:11 GMT

I am thinking about maybe making this private because there are certain things that i want to talk about that i don't really know if i want random people who aren't my friends to read. But whatever..for now i don't care

Lately I have had really violent dreams, where i hit someone in the face or guns are involved. Lots of guns.i get hit, but i keel running kind of a dream. weird. maybe I am mad about something that i haven't faced directly?? Anyways, i was watching a documentry called Size Zero. and this woman goes on this crash diet to become a size zero. Now I think that is pretty foolish considering the shit it does to your body, but in a weird way i didn't think she looked that skinny in the end. Has the media really done a number on me to make me think that a size zero looks healthy?? It's messed up for reals.

I had lunch today with my dad and I couldn't be happier! We actually had a conversation and laughed a few times. Our relationship has been on the rocks for years now and I am starting to see the light. It reminded me of this Grey's Anatomy episode where Meredith and her friends are talking about how they value their friendships more than they do their family members. I think we are taught that no matter what happens in life, family comes first. I think this is true to an extent..like your kids or something, but I have friendships that mean way more to me than a lot of my relatives. Even my sister and brother. It does bother me that I'm not as close to my family as a lot of my friends seem to be, but where i lack in family I try to make up with friends. I mean don't get me wrong, I will always love my family, but i don't have to like them. Now i sound like a bitch. Damn Minnesota and their family morals and values. haha

a day of sloathing

Mon, 14 Jan 2008 02:27:58 GMT

Today Karl and I awoke early and watched Nip Tuck literally all day long. We both just looked at each other like, "What the fuck just happened...we just spent like 5 hours on this show."

Other than that, not much is new. I am trying to get my roommate to want to move out, but I don't know if i am going to be successful. She says she wants to move into her own apartment and i want her to as well. I feel bad because she is sooo damn awkward around my friends and she is constantly on her phone. Karl told me yesterday she missed her bus downtown coming home because she was talking on her phone. aaaannnnd the apartment smells funny...it's her smell, I don't really know what to compare it too, but I tried to cover it up with my creme brulee candle last night.

Last night was pretty fun. Karl and I went out to Albertville to go party with Ben Kippley and Logan Brangerd. It was nice to see them and have a couple drinkies. I am hoping to have more nights on the town with good friends before school starts again, because I have a feeling that I will not have any time for that.

I'm gonna go read a good book, it's been a while since i read just for fun.

and the beat goes on.

Sat, 05 Jan 2008 22:08:09 GMT

So I am going to start writing in this thing and keep an eye on my friends lives when i don't see them for a while.

Yea I don't really have much to say except...bloodredsparks....gooooooddd

Peace,

Lins

this is the first entry

Tue, 27 Feb 2007 04:40:50 GMT

hi livejournal...nice to meet you..for the second time